Our Father Who Wasn't There

Can a memoir begin without memories? Can a father be invented?
When David Carlin was only six months old, his father, Brian, died. It was
the 1960s in isolated Western Australia, a place in which emotions were
discreetly veiled, women did not attend funerals — and suicide was a sin.
Brian became a mysteriously absent figure in David’s family story, hardly
spoken of again.


As an adult, David yearns to conjure up his father, to uncover what led to
his death at his own hand. Gradually, he begins to piece together Brian’s
story from the faltering memories of friends and relatives, and from the
voices and incidents that emerge from Brian’s medical records. Into the
inevitable gaps that remain, David cannot help but stray with his own
imaginings.


Through David, Brian’s story starts to fill out — up rise the hessian walls of his childhood house on the edge of the wheat belt during the Depression,
the outposts of heady undergraduate bohemia in late-1940s Perth, and Brian’s
happily married life with a brilliant and loving young wife, and an equally
brilliant career. But, in among it all, there also rises a darkness — a
damaging undertow of electric-shock therapy, insulin comas, and whispered
wartime events.


In this masterfully rendered memoir, David moves like a ghost through time
and place, deftly weaving a story from what he has always known, and from
all that he will never know.