A Crucified Mind is a poignant account of the memoirs of Susan Billington, who wrote this book in her last twelve months before taking her own life. In her emotionally charged writings, she describes her many suicide attempts and struggles with Bipolar Mood and Anxiety Disorder.
There are funny, light moments in the book, as well as excruciatingly sad and painful moments, as the reader gets to take the same merry-go-round of emotional impulsivity and suicidal behaviour.
By presenting her writings in the form of personal memoirs, the reader gets to experience Susan’s life directly from her perspective. She shares her depressions and anxiety, followed by feelings of emptiness and perceived abandonment. She shares her lost hopes and abandoned dreams, unable to see any future for herself, that led ultimately to her suicide.
This book was published after Susan died. I hope that her writings will touch those who read it, and help provide insight into what it is like to live with mental illness.