The book is build upon continues sequels of intense short stories – letters the author calls them. Almost as if, the author is writing a public confession. See, after a childhood which hammered that destruction everyday, how is one suited to live ones own life? Therefore the other part of the story is about moral decline and finding that low bottom. Because were does one belong after experiencing evil in such degree, and who can relate to ones experiences, or can anyone do that? In whirlwind of nightmares and hallucinations and stupid decisions, the intelligent tries to solve the puzzles pieces he is forced to confront.