BrainPan Amnesty

Since I was a kid one big item on my bucket list was to write a book. To create a piece of art and call it my own. I am not musically talented, nor in the visual arts. So I have these prose as my one creative outlet.
I would not consider myself an "author" and I am not a proficient writer by any means. I don't think anything in this book is prolific or revolutionary, but it is honest.
I used to write all the time and I slowly stopped as it increasingly became more and more contrived and felt disingenuous.
Then, probably 11 years since I truly wrote anything, I mentally broke down. After hitting my breaking point writing was one of the ways I put myself back together and processed my feelings, thoughts, and traumas. So I decided to cross off this big bucket list item, whether it was good or special or not, but I would be able to say I did it. In this, I would accomplish the task of creating art itself and the therapeutic effects of the compositions themselves.
This book is a memoir of the processing of these feelings and revelations. In the semi-beatnick legacy of the little literary lineage I have, there is very little editing to the pieces outside of spelling and grammar. It's an expression of thought and emotive outburst. I didn't care if it made sense as long as it was honest and resonated in some way to me, and hopefully any reader who comes across it.
Writing these pieces helped me salvage and process many parts of myself; good, bad, old, and new. No matter how they are received they are that to me. If they resonate with you or help you in any way then I am thankful and it is not in vain. If they are ridiculous and make no sense then I hope they give you a laugh. Either way, I hope it adds something to your life as the making of this book has done for me.