Going Sane

Going Sane takes the reader deeper into the heinous abuses and resulting insanity that crippled and debilitated Gabriel profoundly. The experience of physical, emotional, and sexual tortures drove her into a level depth of insanity and continual emotional trauma that permeated her daily life and required complicated and constantly shifting strategies for survival. Her tenacious courage is profoundly inspiring.



Note from the Author:

In this second book of my series about my process of healing from incest through a therapeutic process that included painting my story, I am sharing with the readers some of the most heinous abuses and the resulting insanity that crippled and debilitated me profoundly. The experience of physical, emotional and sexual tortures drove me into a level of insanity and loss of perception of reality that permeated my daily life and required complicated and constantly shifting strategies for survival.

It was precisely because the intricate, graphic, heinous details of the abuse and the resulting insanities continued to imprison and torment me that I needed to purge all these details out. By painting and writing the details and bringing them into my therapeutic arena, I was finally healed of them, one by one. The shame I carried about needing to reveal the truth, the disturbing details, became the place where I had to exercise the most courage and in this alchemy of my soul and person, Shame has be changed into Courage. It is with this Courage that I offer you these volumes and I hope and pray that it may help you to exercise whatever Courage you need in your life to overcome what oppresses you.

These themes and paintings are divided into three books, the Recovery From Incest Through Painting My Story series:

This White House (Book One) - Gathering The Wood


• Chapter 1 A Legacy of Shame: A Brief Autobiography 
• Chapter 2 First Revelations: Beginning Therapy 
• Chapter 3 Child Pornography/Child Prostitution 
• Chapter 4 Multiplicity 
• Chapter 5 Inner Deaths: Borderline Series 
• Chapter 6 Obesity and Measurement 
• Chapter 7 Spirituality and Guilt 

Going Sane (Book Two) - Tending The Fire


• Chapter 1 The Therapeutic Relationship 
• Chapter 2 Establishing My Insanity 
• Chapter 3 Tortured: Segreto Oscuro (Dark Secret) 
• Chapter 4 The Penis Question 
• Chapter 5 The Fiercest Taboo 
• Chapter 6 Sensations 
• Chapter 7 Some of My Selves 

A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three) - Witnessing the Gold


• Chapter 1 Choosing Consciousness 
• Chapter 2 Grieving 
• Chapter 3 Letting Go 
• Chapter 4 Forgiveness 
• Chapter 5 A New Beginning 
• Chapter 6 The Dawn and I 
• Chapter 7 Only Now 

Reviews:

In this second book on the series, Gabriel Orion Marie continues in the same crisp, unwavering determination to speak the truth, obliterating the darkness, as it cannot survive in the light. I am overwhelmed by her frank depiction of the truth, and the strength and dignity with which she speaks it. Healing is her prize. As a result, this knowledge of survival and healing has become available to all of us, especially those who have not yet found the where with all to speak out for themselves. May she continue to speak the truth, live in the light, and share her strength.

Lisa Hassler Thomas, Art Therapist “ATJR”


In this second book of Gabriel Orion Marie's riveting trilogy, Going Sane, the author continues to chronicle her determined search for healing. The chapter on choosing and finding the right therapist is very insightful. Her desire for grappling with the aftermath of her horrendous abuse is fierce. She takes no prisoners. The title was given to her by therapist who, when she exclaimed that that she was going crazy revisiting what she had suffered. Dr. A. said to her "you're already crazy. That was the appropriate response to what you went through, now you're going sane. A brilliant insight and a real truth. This book explores all the psychic demons that tormented her again, the paintings are powerful."

Lauretta Santarossa, Toronto, Canada