Life Sentence

A Police Officer’s Battle with PTSD

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Publisher Description

‘I’m awake again, shaking, sweating. My heart is racing and I stare into the dark. I can’t close my eyes. I fear the images – too many to count. They swim behind my eyelids; I am drowning in their terror. Suicides, heart attacks, murders, car crashes. The images come again and again. All the dead people . . . I have to touch their legs, their arms, reach into their pockets, look into their unseeing eyes for clues.’

From the moment two police officers walked into his primary school to give a talk, Simon Gillard knew he wanted to be a policeman. It was a dream that stayed with him right through high school, and as soon as he was old enough he applied to join the force.

He began as an optimistic young probationary constable with a great sense of humour and passion for the job. But as his career began to build, so too did the number of cases he worked on, from high-profile murder investigations to paedophile rings, suicides to the investigation even of a fellow officer.

As the cases mounted, Simon started to suffer panic attacks and to drink heavily. Nights were the most difficult: he would shut his eyes only to be tormented by nightmares about missing young women, and schoolboys not much older than his own son, whose lives had been devastated. He sought help but was encouraged to just ‘go back to work’ and ended up making four attempts on his own life. He was later formally diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and invalided out of the force.

In this powerful memoir, Simon reveals the details of the cases he worked on, how the police force operates, and how one man’s life can spiral so out of control. He is now working to create awareness about PTSD and has written this book to help other sufferers.

Biographies & Memoirs
1 May
Penguin Random House Australia
Penguin Random House Australia Pty Ltd

Customer Reviews

bryanj1964 ,

Terrific Read!

Five stars ***** Must Read!

Bribie Liz ,

This book has helped me understand

Thank you for sharing your ordeal. You will make a difference!

I am the mother of a NSW police officer (now discharged) who has been diagnosed with PTSD. This book has helped me better understand just what my son has been going through and also how his wife and family might have been feeling. Fortunately he has sought and is receiving help and is now coping much better than he was.

I think this book would be a great help to PTSD sufferers and their families and friends. This book should also be read by those in various emergency service organisations because those are the people who are in a position to really make a difference to do the right thing by their colleagues and staff - firstly to set up policies and procedures and training to try to prevent over exposure to the things that these people have to deal with, and secondly if staff are diagnosed with PTSD to ensure they get empathetic treatment from the hierarchy and an understanding from their colleagues who don't usually realise there is a problem until it is too late.

The book is easy to read and flows well.

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