I haven’t seen mine either in 3 years but I feel him with me all the time.
Yesterday was one of the worst days:
I had a lovely day — I felt happy because I felt him in my dreams.
I meditated and sent love to him in my heart for over an hour.
After a couple of hours, I was hit by an intense wave of sad feelings. I knew right away that it was him.
My heart sunk — I went into an emotional funk. A part of my body felt his pain.
My knees felt weak — I suddenly broke down into tears and sobbed for over 30 minutes until the sad feelings dissipated.
After I cried out the pain, I felt better.
I felt his pain and cried like a baby. , Afterward, I said positive words to myself like; I accept my feelings. I accept feeling unconditional love. I love my beloved. I feel you. I love you.
Every time I gave love to myself, I felt the tension calm down.
I suddenly felt him sending love back to me. I smiled.
Enjoy this simple book.