Things I Have Withheld
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Publisher Description
WINNER OF THE OCM BOCAS PRIZE FOR NON-FICTION
SHORTLISTED FOR THE BAILLIE GIFFORD PRIZE
In this astonishing collection of essays, the award-winning poet and novelist Kei Miller explores the silence in which so many important things are kept. He examines the experience of discrimination through this silence and what it means to breach it: to risk words, to risk truths. And he considers the histories our bodies inherit – the crimes that haunt them, and how meaning can shift as we move throughout the world, variously assuming privilege or victimhood.
Through letters to James Baldwin, encounters with Liam Neeson, Soca, Carnival, family secrets, love affairs, white women’s tears, questions of aesthetics and more, Miller powerfully and imaginatively recounts everyday acts of racism and prejudice.
With both the epigrammatic concision and conversational cadence of his poetry and novels, Things I Have Withheld is a great artistic achievement: a work of beauty which challenges us to interrogate what seems unsayable and why – our actions, defence mechanisms, imaginations and interactions – and those of the world around us.
PUBLISHERS WEEKLY
Jamaican poet and novelist Miller (Augustown) gives a searing voice to "the things I have been trying so hard to write" in this entrancing collection. In 14 essays that code-switch between personas and move from the incisive language of a university professor to Jamaican patois, he vividly depicts the ways colonialism, racism, homophobia, and privilege have shaped his life. As he writes in a letter addressed to the late James Baldwin, "there is little between... the set of circumstances you wrote of, and the set of circumstances we live in now." In "Mr Brown, Mrs White and Ms Black," a modern-day parable about the nuances of race, he chalks ethnicity up to being "not so much what you are, as... what people have decided you are." In "My Brother, My Brother," he witnesses the clash of whiteness and "brudda"-hood as a tourist poses for a photo in a historic slave dungeon in Ghana, while "The Boys at the Harbour" offers a glimpse of the struggles Jamaica's gay youth face and "this identity that has left so many of them homeless." Closing with another letter addressing Baldwin, Miller brings into devastating clarity the dangers confronting Black people in visualizing the final moments of Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, and George Floyd. Sharp as blades, Miller's words cut to the core.
