There is no SELF ... but a gateway to the INFINITE (1‪)‬

I had many times ... when i was really in love ... and ...
It actually happened ... 2, 3 ... 27 times.
Adoring it.
But ... certainly being into a state of totally losing the control on myself ... and ...
Unfortunately ... today i understand that the act of being in love ... it's a way of playing with our souls.
Allowing it to happen.
Discovering ... what we knew ... but actually couldn't really accept that can be real.
At least ... into my case.
But fortunately ... this is actually the moment of deeply
feeling the connection with ... the inner self.
And understanding ... that all is actually happening ... is an act of trying to experience into the real world ... what i feel is available by such a long time into the inner world.
The Infinite.
So ... all those ladies ... which i was claiming that i've loved so, so much ... even if today i do not even remember their names ... were just characters playing the role of a teacher that is actually teaching me to access my ... inner self.