Smacked Smacked


A Story of White-Collar Ambition, Addiction, and Tragedy

    • 4.5 • 11 Ratings
    • $16.99
    • $16.99

Publisher Description

A journalist pieces together the mysteries surrounding her ex-husband’s descent into drug addiction while trying to rebuild a life for her family, taking readers on an intimate journey into the world of white-collar drug abuse.

“A rare combination of journalistic rigor, personal courage, and writerly grace.”—Bill Clegg, author of Portrait of an Addict as a Young Man

Something was wrong with Peter. Eilene Zimmerman noticed that her ex-husband looked thin, seemed distracted, and was frequently absent from activities with their children. She thought he looked sick and needed to see a doctor, and indeed, he told her he had been diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder. Yet in many ways, Peter seemed to have it all: a beautiful house by the beach, expensive cars, and other luxuries that came with an affluent life. Eilene assumed his odd behavior was due to stress and overwork—he was a senior partner at a prominent law firm and had been working more than sixty hours a week for the last twenty years.

Although they were divorced, Eilene and Peter had been partners and friends for decades, so when she and her children were unable to reach Peter for several days, Eilene went to his house to see if he was OK.

So begins Smacked, a brilliant and moving memoir of Eilene’s shocking discovery, one that sets her on a journey to find out how a man she knew for nearly thirty years became a drug addict, hiding it so well that neither she nor anyone else in his life suspected what was happening. Eilene discovers that Peter led a secret life, one that started with pills and ended with opioids, cocaine, and methamphetamine. He was also addicted to work; the last call Peter ever made was to dial in to a conference call.

Eilene is determined to learn all she can about Peter’s hidden life, and also about drug addiction among ambitious, high-achieving professionals like him. Through extensive research and interviews, she presents a picture of drug dependence today in that moneyed, upwardly mobile world. She also embarks on a journey to re-create her life in the wake of loss, both of the person—and the relationship—that profoundly defined the woman she had become.

Biographies & Memoirs
February 4
Random House Publishing Group
Penguin Random House Canada

Customer Reviews

JacquelineBond ,

Wonderfully Insightful.

I am a professional in recovery. Cocaine was my love and ultimately my demise. This book made me cry and gave me a better understanding that I really am NOT alone. The idea of community being the antidote really resonated with me as I’ve realized during NA meetings that this sense of community which it provides is what keeps me in recovery. Thank you for writing this.

More Books Like This

Together Together
We Are All Perfectly Fine We Are All Perfectly Fine
Shattered Shattered
Mothering Addiction Mothering Addiction
You Left Early You Left Early
What Remains What Remains

More Books by Eilene Zimmerman

Customers Also Bought

Shards Shards
Free Refills Free Refills
Chanel Bonfire Chanel Bonfire
Strung Out Strung Out
Stray Stray
My Fair Junkie My Fair Junkie