Nothing separates us from God. It is only the acquired habit of identifying with modified mental states and external conditions that causes and sustains the illusion of independent existence. When this primary error in perception is corrected, our awareness is immediately restored to its original purity.
Read this book to improve your understanding and clarify your awareness. Apply the recommended practices to unveil innate knowledge of your true nature in relationship to God.
Interesting idea on meditation , most types of meditation require you to chant or focus on a beam of light onto yourself this principle is to clear the mind.