This Is Me
A Reckoning
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Publisher Description
AN INSTANT NEW YORK TIMES AND USA TODAY BESTSELLER
Heroes and Nashville star Hayden Panettiere reclaims her story in a remarkably candid memoir.
Hayden Panettiere’s career in entertainment began before she was old enough to walk. From early commercials to film and television roles in hits like Remember the Titans, her career unfolded in the public eye, resulting in tremendous success by her early teens. She had become a fixture of early-2000s pop culture, earning acclaim for performances in Heroes, Nashville (which earned her two Golden Globe nominations), and beyond—while quietly carrying the weight of expectations that came with being Hollywood’s “It girl.”
Behind the image was a far more complicated reality. As Hayden entered adulthood, the industry that once felt playful grew unforgiving as she learned by experience the pressure placed on young performers, the hefty price that often comes with fame, and how quickly someone else can take control of your story. She recounts being scrutinized by tabloids, watching her body and private pain become public property, and performing storylines on-screen that echoed trauma she was living through off-camera.
In this memoir, Hayden shares a rare and intimate glimpse into her life behind closed doors, opening up about postpartum depression, addiction and recovery, trauma, domestic abuse, and loss. She holds nothing back as she reflects on the moments she calls “lifequakes”— experiences that fractured her sense of self and forced her to rebuild it from the inside out. In This Is Me: A Reckoning Hayden showcases her most vulnerable role yet. . .this is her story, on her terms.
APPLE BOOKS REVIEW
As an actor who’s been on screen since she was an infant, Hayden Panettiere has never had much control over her own narrative, but that finally changes with this achingly candid memoir. Panettiere’s story is bound up with the pressures of show business from the very start, with descriptions of her mother reacting harshly whenever she became nervous or distracted at auditions, even as a toddler. Happily, she also has plenty of stories about learning and having fun on set, especially during her stint on One Life to Live and during the filming of the movie Remember the Titans. But Panettiere is also reflective about these early experiences, pondering whether her still-growing mind unconsciously picked up damaging ideas from the cycle of receiving praise for portraying suffering and distress. This thoughtfulness also extends to her descriptions of her later struggles, especially the years she spent in a physically abusive relationship, and its connection to her choice to become sober. The vulnerability she allows to come through makes her deeply personal story even more moving.
Customer Reviews
Amazing !!
I finished this book in two days . Such a good read . Hayden is so emotionally raw and real . She lays it all out there . Being a recovering alcoholic I could relate to that part of her story . She doesn’t gloss over the negative things that happened in her life , she tells it like it is in hopes that we can learn and grow from it . She dives into the meaning and truth of rigorous acceptance and finding peace in the chaos. 10 out of 10 I can’t recommend this book enough 🙂