What I Believe
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Publisher Description
Vicki wishes she could solve her problems as easily as she can arrange words into a poem
Vicki Marnet has two wonderful big brothers who are completely regular people. They like sports, chess, and the student senate, and are totally normal—unlike Vicky, who feels in her heart that she's different. For one thing, she writes poetry for fun. She plays with sonnets, pantoums, sestinas—all kinds of stanzas and rhymes, anything to take her mind off what's happening at home.
Vicki's dad lost his job, and since he can't find another one, her family is moving to the city. They're selling their big house, moving into a tiny apartment, and facing troubles that Vicki has never known before. Ashamed and slow to make friends at her new school, Vicki puts her thoughts down in verse as she makes a new place for herself—one that's very much her very own.
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Mazer (When She Was Good) traces the ungluing of a suburbanite family in this emotionally taut book narrated by middle-schooler Vicki Marnet. Vicki, who has a passion for words, uses brief monologues and multiple forms of verse (including sestinas and pantoums) to express her own and her parents' feelings after her father loses his executive job and the family teeters on the brink of ruin in financial and emotional terms. She describes her father's state of depression ("but dad/ doesn't/ do anything / too tired all the time./ mom can't even leave him alone,/ or won't") and crystallizes her mother's take-charge attitude ("Dad listened, his hands/ steepled. Mom did the talking./ 'We're putting the house/ up for sale. We have no choice./ We're drowning in debt. Drowning!"). Vicki, her older brothers and their parents move to the city, where Mrs. Marnet finds employment, but a cloud of despair still hovers over the family. Unable to face his failures, Vicki's father leaves home, and Vicki's room is subleased to a boarder in order to make ends meet. Meanwhile, Vicki stoops to desperate measures (she steals from their boarder), but she also makes a new friend and discovers the importance of confidences. These often poignant journal entries add up to a candid portrayal of how a teen's life can change overnight. Readers who are able to see beyond Vicki's gloom will discover how the protagonist's love of language proves to have a healing effect. Ages 10-14.
