When Jesus Carried Me

Baby Victoria was born at six o’five in the morning on Sandra and Russ Bearor’s fourth anniversary. They didn’t know it was the beginning of a chapter in their lives that would forever change how they saw themselves. Coming was the pinnacle point that would carve out the place in life God meant for them if they chose to follow his word and have faith in his plan for their lives.


In When Jesus Carried Me, Sandra tells a true story of the greatest of loves, the worst kind of loss, and how she survived the everyday pain of sorrow by the power, love, and grace of the Lord. This memoir, presented in journal format, shares the grief and sadness the family experienced when Victoria died at birth.


Sandra chronicles how she grew as a person, a wife, and a mom, as she explains with a direct line through the Holy Spirit, the hurt, heartache, and the peace the Lord shared with her. She discusses her journey, with a newfound understanding and healing, to help others find discernment in a world no one should have to live through.