Paying attention to what i am feeding my soul with

I've heard one time someone saying ... "It takes me days to recover after a dream with you in it".
And somehow this is what i was feeling near my beloved ...
Carla.
Falling in love of her ... again and again.
Yes ... every day.
But you see ... she was a dream.
A real one ... but a dream.
I keep writing into this journal ... revealing the intensity of my emotions experienced while with her ... and ...
So ... to tell you the truth is all about the vibes.
The energies i am chasing for ... again and again.
And i call my story with her ... a dream ... because today i feel that my real world is the inner one.
I just jump from one universe to the other ... hoping ...
today will be a beautiful experience.
Of course many times ... all being illusory and feeling that the illusion ends up as a disillusion.
Fortunately or unfortunately ... all continues.
I allow it to continue.
Cause ... I just love beautiful vibes ... and i am not ashamed to admit that i would do anything to access them.
Not being bothered of anything at all.
Not even if it's illegal or immoral, because ... that's my new life plan.
Enjoy life ... and do my best to feel alive.
Living ... into a poem.
A beautiful love story ... near a beautiful woman.
... but still being confused and annoyed that this reality is so dominated by duality ... and all related to it.