Acting ... not reacting

I am acting.
I play lots of roles.
And it already looks like ... i live into more parallel worlds ... feeling so often that actually ... i am sort of a super human.
Of course ... everything i am talking about ... it's just illusory.
Meanwhile ... i keep writing.
Aha ... essays without a real sense ... analysing and defining my so called real life ... claiming i want to redefine everything ... but of course ... it's all a lie.
I just pretend.
I act ... and i react.
Then ... again ... i react.
I keep repeating that it's all an illusion ... but ...
So ... my self therapy sessions ... which i have in front of the public ... are just ... another way of fooling around.
And ... still ... i continue doing it.
I go deeper into my soul.
I try to penetrate myself.
I try to go ... beyond the masks.
I try to understand ... the nonsense.
But ....
So ... i am allowing myself to reveal you ... one more time ... this non-ending show of the absurd.
My own life.
You'll enjoy it ... looking like ... sort of a funny stand up
comedy.
Having ... only one real purpose.
To disturb you.