Exploring connections ... chasing for vibes

Most certainly my karma is a lot related to the idea of connecting to souls.
Many souls.
Especially ... femininity.
And ... whatever happens ... i always end up ... seeing new and new ladies around me ... on the stage of my life.
Unfortunately ... i am shy.
I am so shy ... that i look ridiculous ... but no matter what ... life simply continues.
And i see ... new and new ladies ... waiting for me ... to
connect with them.
Unfortunately ... i just delay all.
Excusing myself ... that i am not really ready yet.
Meanwhile ... the Universe smiles.
Waiting.
Somehow ... inducing me the illusion that i have all the time in the world.
That i am ... eternal.
Well ... of course ... i am not.
Or ... not yet.
So ... ladies are "delivered" at my door ... but i don't really understand the message.
Being ... so idiotic.
I am sure ... that like many, many others ... i know what is
happening ... but ...
Well ... for sure ... my life lesson is related to ... duality.
With ... the ladies.
Many ladies.
And ... i don't even speak about ... sexuality.
No.
Hell no.
Cause ... all is about ... the ability to understand my destiny.
The divine plans.
But ... i just can't.
I am ... incapable.
Being ... nothing than ... a fool.
Not understanding ... life at all ... and for sure being ignorant too.
Extremely.
And ....
Well ... the karmic show continues ... whispering me the
same message ... DUALITY.
Dreaming about happiness ... but not moving a finger to do anything ... what i actually have to do.
Yeah ... connect.
Connecting for real.
Be one.
One soul.
Allow my soul ... to melt.
Allow myself to be metamorphosed ...
Even if ... it might be ... irreversible.