If Not For You

'Extraordinarily brave and tender... a book that sings with love and hope' Dr Rachel Clarke
'Profoundly moving' The Times
'Extraordinary' Anita Rani, Woman's Hour
'Full of strength and hope' Kate Mosse
'Tender, heart-breaking and astonishingly eloquent' Evening Standard
'The most beautiful thing I have ever read' Tom Bradby

'If I were to look closely at the jagged edges of my fragmented heart, I'm sure I'd see that some spaces now shine with gold. And that is what he left for me.'

On the 17th November 2019, Grey Atticus Fox was born, nine weeks early, to Georgie and Mike in a Kent Hospital.

Heart-wrenching, cathartic, life-affirming, this is her account of the twenty-one days they had together, and its aftermath - the search to make sense of unimaginable loss. It bears witness to both the confusion and the clarity that accompany great pain, and stands as a testament to empathy, care and humanity when life is at its hardest.