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Publisher Description

'One of the best books I’ve ever read' Ruth Jones

'This is superb . . . and compulsive and disturbing and very well done indeed' Harriet Tyce, author of Blood Orange


If I Can't Have You by Charlotte Levin is an all-consuming novel about loneliness, obsession and how far we go for the ones we love.

My name is Constance Little.
This is my love story.
But this isn’t the way it was supposed to end.

After fleeing Manchester for London, Constance attempts to put past tragedies behind her and make a fresh start. When she embarks on a relationship with the new doctor at the medical practice where she works, she’s convinced she’s finally found the love and security she craves.

Then he ends it.

But if life has taught her anything, it’s that if you love someone, you should never let them go.

That's why for Constance Little, her obsession is only just beginning . . .


'An exceptionally raw and visceral and painfully funny novel' Emma Flint, author of Little Deaths

'Brilliant. A perfect and completely terrifying depiction of heartbreak and obsession' Sarah Powell

'A blackly comic but heartfelt story of love and loneliness, with an endearing and damaged heroine' Sunday Mirror

'A darkly comic and beautifully written debut novel’ Woman

‘Blackly comic, heartrendingly sad – a brilliant debut novel’ Best

'Compulsively readable and darkly funny with pin-sharp characterisation’ Laura Marshall, author of Friend Request

Crime & Thrillers
Chloe Massey
hr min
July 9
Pan Macmillan

Customer Reviews

Jaye's22 ,

Twisted & Disturbing

Charlotte’s Father abandoned her when she was young, so it was Charlotte and her Mum against the world. One day Charlotte’s world goes dark, then she is alone. In the hope of a fresh start she leaves Manchester and goes to London.

She is working in a Doctors practice and when one doctor’s dies in an accident in walks the new doctor. Soon Charlotte is secretly dating him and she falls for him then he ends things.

The thing is He is the one and she cannot let him go. To her he is the love of her life, to him it’s a bit of fun. Even when he treats her badly with the odd liaison every now and then this only serves to fuel her desire for him.

This becomes an obsession and things go from bad to so much worse - Charlotte has so many unresolved issues that she is so tunnel visioned on the object of her desire that does not see what is right in front of her, in the guise of another man that is a friend who brings his own version of love.

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