A Boy Called Q is a short story by author Fox Emerson about a young man called Q who becomes confused about his sexual identity.
When Q decides that he's had enough of porn, he ventures out to meet a guy called Michael, who he's decided will be his first gay sexual experience.
The sex is amazing and Q enjoys every second. Until it's over, then the feelings of guilt and disgust set in and he quickly becomes remorseful.
He rushes to his flat and refuses to leave his home. What happens next is loosely based on a true story and is a heart-wrenching story.