Beside Myself
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- £7.99
Publisher Description
As gripping as Room, as powerful as Elizabeth is Missing, Beside Myself is the story of twin sisters, a childhood game with devastating consequences and the slippery nature of identity
Helen and Ellie are identical twins – like two peas in a pod, everyone says.
The girls know this isn't true, though: Helen is the leader and Ellie the follower.
Until they decide to swap places: just for fun, and just for one day.
But Ellie refuses to swap back...
And so begins a nightmare from which Helen cannot wake up. Her toys, her clothes, her friends, her glowing record at school, the favour of her mother and the future she had dreamed of are all gone to a sister who blossoms in the approval that used to belong to Helen. And as the years pass, she loses not only her memory of that day but also herself – until eventually only 'Smudge' is left.
Twenty-five years later, Smudge receives a call from out of the blue. It threatens to pull her back into her sister's dangerous orbit, but if this is her only chance to face the past, how can she resist?
Beside Myself is a compulsive and darkly brilliant psychological drama about family and identity – what makes us who we are and how very fragile it can be.
PUBLISHERS WEEKLY
In British author Morgan's intriguing first novel, identical twins Ellie and Helen Sallis decide to swap roles after their father's death when they're four. When outgoing Helen, the narrator, tries to end the game soon afterward, socially awkward Ellie continues to pretend to be Helen, denying that she's Ellie. Despite Helen's fervent protests, the sisters' self-absorbed and unsupportive mother believes the new Helen, concluding that "Ellie" is lying to be difficult. As a consequence of the switch, "Helen" (the real Ellie) becomes popular and a good student, while "Ellie" (the real Helen) fulfills the low expectations of her mother and friends by acting out. Over time, the game begins to spiral out of control. "Helen" becomes a famous talk show host with a husband and daughter, while "Ellie" is barely functional. The reader must piece together what, if anything, is true about Helen's story as her family's secrets slowly surface. The arc of each girl's life and the game's tragic trajectory make for riveting and suspenseful reading.