Taciturn

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I read a bit of the sample but had to stop reading it because it was upsetting me too much. I hate how Niall dates all these fans because I never even got to go to a One Direction concert when they were still together and I won't get to see Niall at his own concert. I'm jealous of Niall's childhood friend monkey. Why doesn't Niall have any guy friends? It's also upsetting because Niall would never fancy me if he saw me and I'm known for talking to much when he likes girls who are quiet and shy. Also why doesn't Niall date celebrity girls? If he was going out with a celebrity girl I would still be upset but I would be able to accept that she's famous like he is so has more chance of being with him.
I never want to read this book. Why did he propose to a fan at a meet and greet? I hate how I'm never going to get a Horan hug.
I hate how life just keeps going on and I just keep getting older and I still continue being the only fan who has never met Niall.
Also since a very young age even though I have Aspergers people have gone on at me for being very young for my age. So why is this Gail/monkey allowed to act childish and cling on to Niall's back like a monkey all her life? I hate how I could never jump on to Niall's back because I'm far too big. I wish I could give this book no stars.