(2018) Stardust Lust

My poetic journey threw four days of ups and downs, that i had to overcome and regain my mobility, that I had suffered a flareup due to my M.S.. I believe in kismet and rather then seeing it as a uphill battle I dug deep and with only my iPad/iPhone (and no internet) to jotted down my mental jargon… quickly found God staring at me from the 10th floor window (when I originally got sick from what was later diagnosed as M.S.) and whom had a falling out in 1997. So with that my life was placed on hold, i was at a standstill, my helicopter blades were spinning but it didn’t have a pilot to navigate this harsh course, every dream quickly vanished and either replaced or my dreams dried up,  cause I had to learn to walk and talk, speak and think, the drugs that my original Neurologist had me placed on prednisone to stabilize me, and then afterwords a regimental 3 injections a week, and weekends off to which helped out, see i had to not only put up with Prednisone which was taxing on my body every time i suffered from a flareup but i had to rely on medication that was killing my insides, no amount of coxing on the Neurologist’s pigeonholing me with his bleak outlook 

but the moment I was able to fully understand the complexity of my disease I could only be left in disorder as i was systemically being taken out.  so Now what? I had to remove myself from the drugs cause though the Prednisone worked wonders in getting me mobile, they also carry great risks from the over exposure to the toxins used in them… yes I was a brittle boy, but quickly opted for the vegan and veggie route as an alternative life style as opposed to the rather poor life style choices I was exposed & inadvertently exposing myself to.