Still on Fire: Field Notes from a Queer Mystic (Unabridged‪)‬

Jan Phillips was a devoted Catholic who wanted nothing more than to be a nun and who joyously entered the convent at 18. Two years later, she was dismissed for “a disposition unsuited to religious life, with excessive and exclusive friendships”. She was lesbian. She had always known it.

“It was being homosexual that made me want to kill myself [at 12]. As far as I knew, there was nothing worse than being queer. They were perverts, sinners, hated by God, hated by just about everyone. Lezzies, bull dykes, fags, queers, lesbos—all damned, and there I was, one of them."

Still on Fire is a memoir of religious wounding and spiritual healing, of judgment and forgiveness, and of social activism in a world that is in our hands. Phillips traveled the globe on a one-woman peace pilgrimage, raised the consciousness of women, faced her privilege on a trip to India, and is working to dismantle structural racism. Her Livingkindness Foundation supports schoolchildren in Nigeria.

“Any spirituality that does not bring about more justice, more social awareness, more right action in the world is a lame and impotent excuse for faith.... My action for justice is my spirituality."

She tells the story of her life with humor and compassion, sharing her poetry, songs, and photos along the way.

Jan Phillips facilitates workshops throughout the US and Canada using her music, videos, and poetry to keep the heart and brain connected.

She has been a writer and photographer since the mid-1970s, and her work has been published in The New York Times, People, Christian Science Monitor, Ms. Magazine, Parade Magazine, Utne Reader, The Sun Magazine, and National Catholic Reporter.

Phillips is the author of 10 other books, including No Ordinary Time (Livingkindness Foundation, 2011) and There Are Burning Bushes Everywhere (Livingkindness Foundation, 2016).