Dying to Live

For Merica Saint John, the journey from dying to living wasnt easy or fast, but it was worth it. In this memoir, she narrates the true story of her life and how she moved from the depths of despair to living a faith-filled life.


With the aid of a journal that she kept for the last thirty-seven years, Saint John tells of her decades-long struggle with darknessfrom a debilitating personality disorder to fibromyalgia, a childhood marked by detached parents, and a host of other physical and mental issues. For many years, she had no idea who she was or who she could be. But God had a plan, and He brought caring people into her life.



Dying to Live details a life that began in sadness but now has turned to joy. This inspirational memoir shows how God can help to overcome years of institutionalization, homelessness, and mental illness; it shows that there is hope for those willing to reach for change.