Mathemagician

You know this feeling: another year ends, and you’re still not the person you know you could be.
You can see the life you’re capable of… and yet you’re not living it.
That’s the real ache—the painful gap between who you are and who you know you could become.
🪞 The version of yourself you’ve pictured for years.
🧭 The one you know is real.
🚧 The one you keep postponing.
You’ve planned.
You’ve circled.
You’ve promised yourself “next year.”
And then the next year looks like the last, and the one before that.
I know this pain because I lived it.
I’m your future self — the version of you who finally closed that gap — and I’m reaching back to guide you through the year that changed everything.
The turning point wasn’t dramatic.
It came the moment I finally asked the question I had been avoiding:
Now What?!
Not as frustration, but as invitation — a call to become the person I knew I already was underneath the noise, the doubt, and the delay.
What carried me forward wasn’t a reinvention.
It was a plan so simple it almost felt like cheating:
📅 One year.
🎯 One word.
🦋 One new me.
For me, that word was Mathemagician —the place where structure met surrender, discipline met delight, math finally made room for magic.
This book is the record of following that plan—the resistance, the small wins, the steady progress, the unexpected shifts that arrived only after I finally chose to begin.
But this one isn’t theirs.
It’s mine — my future self guiding my present self toward who I decided to become.
And as you close this page…ask yourself the same question I had to face:
Who will you be next?