Better vs. Worse

Commitment is a four letter word…


My little sister’s best friend has always been off-limits. 


It doesn’t matter how many times I’ve imagined what it would be like to be with her, she doesn’t want me. She wants a clean-cut guy with a boring job who’ll sit at home and answer her every beck and call. 


I know who I am, and I’m not going to change. 


Sure, I’d do anything she asked, but I can’t change me. Not that she’s ever asked. She knows I’m a lost cause. Life as a surf instructor might not be stable, but it’s fun and I’m good at it. 


These days I think it’s the only thing I’m good at. Because I sure as hell suck at saying no to her lately.