Out of Sane- Falling out of Life

Why do they call it insane? Out of sane is better. Losing all of that sanity that is supposed to get you

through life. Instead I found myself falling out of life. Twists and turns, fourteen surgeries causing chronic

pain, leaving me permanently disabled with complete loss of independence. Two soul stealing marriages. All

of it, shrapnel, leading to deterioration into a world of pain, alcohol, drugs, and pills. Walking hand in hand

with mental illness. Th e hate. Th e anger. Th e sadness for what used to be. Th is is my story. It is fi lled with

tears, desperation, love, discontent, humor, disappointment and loss. However, I hope this helps others out

there not to fall out of life as I did and if they already have, or are heading that way, may they possibly fi nd

some solace in not being completely alone while curled up in a ball.