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Publisher Description

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.

Biographies & Memoirs
23 June
Dey Street Books
HarperCollins Publisher Australia Pty Limited

Customer Reviews

Miraclesforyou ,

Down the Rabbit Hole:

I used to love watching the 'Girl's Next Door’ so I was really interested in the behind the scenes exposure, as I had always wondered what really went on. I certainly wasn’t disappointed and having watched so many of the re-runs, I started noticing things myself. I was so relieved when Holly left the mansion in the book and not surprised by her attracting a similar situation. Her line about being a 'Stepford Wife’ is eerily spot on; who wouldn’t lose their own identity in that almost cult like situation. I’m glad I had the chance of the audible book as listening to holly read it was an added perk. Overall a good fan book.

sMLBrt ,

The "other side"

Whilst some of the contents of the book might have been exaggerated on (wouldn't make for the drama if it weren't) I'm sure most of it is accurate. It's a refreshing and addictive book, which I struggled putting down. Pity the editors didn't pick up on the typos/grammar when they reviewed...

trillezt ,


The overall book was super enjoyable to read! It definitely wasn't what I was expecting but it's such a page turner and the quickest book I've ever read because I loved it so much and now a wee bit of a fan girl over holly x

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