Ghosting ... seen as normality

I've tried to act better.
I mean as a character into a love story.
Actually ... the best version of myself ... as a man ... as a
lover ... as a husband.
But ... unfortunately ... the dynamic of that story ... always remains the same.
Ugly.
Or better said ... pathetic.
That is why ... i've started to write ... analysing in micro
details ... why relationships don't really work ... even if we act ... perfectly.
Same ... as i've tried ... and maybe still try.
Looking as a nonsense.
Too absurd to be true.
But ...
Well ... still chasing to be happy ... illusory believing that i can be happy ... in duality ... i've ended up concluding
that ... accepting that no matter what ... all it's in vain ... the perfect reaction is... ghosting.
Disconnecting ...
Then ... disappearing...
And ... in fact ... stay away from ugly vibes ... cause it's just a waste of time ... and actually a way of wasting my whole existence.
So ... that is what i do today.
Disconnecting temporarily ... or even forever.
Yeah ... acting as a ... ghost.
Claiming ... it's my fundamental right.