I was in darkness

Another book and again lots of conclusions which always converge into ... confusion, strongly proving in front of the public that i can't clearly see the journey of my life.
Trying, but failing ... to express myself.
The funny thing is that i certainly am in top position ... when it comes about the status of ... "lost souls".
Somehow accepting it ... as a pure fact and even considering myself proud of it.
Cause ... i finally found a good thing i am good at.
So ... i write ... analysing and defining all what is going on ... uselessly trying to comprehend the nonsense i am part of especially in duality.
To be more specific ... in love relationships.
Meanwhile ... with or without my agreement this weird journey into the darkness ... continues.
I am confused. Also confusing.
But ... i still live with the illusory hope into my soul ... into a better tomorrow.
One ... that at least till now ... is delaying to come.
So ... i keep speaking in front of the public ... pretending i am writer ... and that i know the secrets of the dynamic related to love stories.
Of course ... being a liar. Like many, many others.
An imposter ... speaking about the ... absolute truth.