Being phlegmed seen as ... normality

I've begun to write about the concept duality man-woman ... starting from the metaphorical expression "Being phlegmed seen as ... normality".
Trying to understand ... the woman.
In fact ... women, but pretending ... i am speaking just about ... one.
Realistically ... somehow understanding ... it's nothing to
understand.
Cause all ... it's a crap.
A weird illogical cocktail of good and bad energies.
Taking everything as real ... even it's always been ... illusory.
So, so damn ... illusory.
And being on the stage ... claiming i am an author ... in front of a public ... that i never interact with ... i simply conclude that i have no conclusion ... but if i would try to come one with one ... i could only say that women adore ... the mud.
And ... all the dirty energies a human being can experience.
There is nothing to do against this tendency.
Nothing to fix.
Duality itself ... is the illusion.
The spell.
The curse.
Unfortunately ... many, many times ... seeing at me ... that not even being phlegmed ... i can't stop myself staying away of ... women.
Good ... or bad ... the show always goes on ... and I'm
trapped into a prison with invisible walls ... calling it love
story, or even the love story of my life ... even if in reality ... it's a real nightmare.
A hell.
A non-ending torture.
Experiencing the humiliation in continuous form ... but
stupidly accepting all as ... normality.