Daemons

Daemons are well hided into the unconscious
There were many times into my life when all looked perfect.
Well … until something happened and the dynamic of all became different.
Having again an ugly existence.
Even … pathetic.
And i was trying and trying and trying to understand what is going on … but …
Today i trend to believe that all is related to the fact that me or someone around me access some weird energies.
I have the tendency to call them … negative energies, but i am not doing it anymore.
All being a story about energies, some of them being beneficial to me … and some just ruining all.
Unfortunately … more i dig … it becomes more and more obvious to myself … that all is related to things that are into my unconscious.
Randomly coming up to surface.
Weird things … which are unclear even for myself, but being a surprise.
Many times … unpleasant surprises.
But .. all is unclear.
Confusing.
I feel i am right when i say that deep inside myself are some daemons which sometimes are coming back to surface, destroying my life … but of course i look so, so weird saying it.
Crazy.
Even stupid.
Very similar with the ones who lost their minds.
But … daemons are part of my being.
Randomly dominating everything.
Ruining all.
So … i probably have to admit that i am not conscious enough.
Cause … there are too many times when i lose control on myself.
Destroying all … with the pathetic shows of the daemons.
The funny thing is that it’s me doing all, but probably under the total dominance of energies which i can’t really understand.
Cause … yes … all is confusing.
My life is a real enigma.
A dynamic which i can’t understand.
Probably … i’ll never understand it.
I know, i feel and i accept that my unconscious hides lots of daemons which sometimes come to surface … enslaving me as a human … and forcing as my behaviour to become extremely stupid, negative, toxic … and making me look like a real monster.
But …
Well … it’s all a too weird story.
I start to have a full picture about all what is going on, because i have clear statistics about all what is going on … but all i can probably do is to try to calm those annoying entities which are influencing my life so, so much.
Well … my life continues anyway … with or without my approval.
I just hope … i can become more conscious.
And get rid of those influences … which i can’t accept, cause are just ruining all.
Or maybe … all is an illusory hope.