Reflections of the Curse

Natalie's saga continues through male archetypes, prophetic dreams, past life memories and legal situations on her journey to genuine love.



“Everyone we meet is our mirror - an aspect of our inner-self, either in the sameness or the opposite.”



In the Garden of Eden, God told Adam and Eve not to partake of the fruit from one particular tree - the tree of knowledge. The Serpent/Satan slithered in approach to the woman Eve telling/enticing her that it was okay to eat of the fruit of the tree. That nothing harmful would occur, to not believe God, but to believe him. Eve believed the Serpent/Satan and took a bite of the forbidden fruit. It tasted good and nothing negative appeared to occur. Eve went to Adam and told him as such. Adam took a bite of the fruit. Adam and Eve realized they were naked and became ashamed. God noticing their shame inquired of Adam, “Why did you eat of the fruit from the forbidden tree?” Adam replied, “The woman, Eve told me to eat of it. God asked Eve, “Why did you partake of the fruit from the forbidden tree? Eve replied, “The serpent told me that it was okay to eat of it, so I did.”

In the fall of Adam, he became a blame-deflecting narcissist. Shame was introduced into paradise. Out of his shame, Adam took no accountability or responsibility for eating the forbidden fruit. Instead, he put the blame on Eve, then Eve passed the buck to the Serpent/Satan. The ‘devil made me do it’ excuse. The Serpent/Satan knew that he’d won this first round. Adam held Eve out in front of him as a shield or excuse. This story line has continued on varying levels ever since.



Satan was the original malignant narcissist caring only about manipulation, control, deception, lies, gas-lighting and destruction as, he tries to take the power of God for himself. Satan/Narcissists are full of shame. The shame of envy, lies and sin. Satan’s goal out of his envy, is to try and usurp God by perverting and destroying God’s most precious and prized creation that of the human being and what better way to do this, but in the romantic male/female relationship.

Genesis 1:27 KJV “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.”

The Serpent/Satan began first thing to tarnish love, peace, purity, bliss and joy in the male/female God-created connection. In each and every male/female connection there will be three. Man, woman and Satan, or male, female and God. And of course, it extrapolates out from there into the world into each and every relationship on earth. There will always aspects of good and evil. It only depends on the spectrum and degree of good, or evil in each person, in any given time, as it magnifies into each relationship. Along with the awareness of self, either to step into self-reflection and healing, or to fall further and deeper into separation from self into sin and shame.



God’s creation of Adam and Eve necessitated a maturation process, as well as a process for salvation.



Why do we attract to those that we do and why do they attract to us? This is one of life's greatest mysteries. Patterns of romance selection are guided by complex internal interweavings. Perhaps, the attraction is to those who carry the energy needed to become more aware of imprints & negative beliefs, in order to heal and further expand our soul.



“The highest of the male energy protects, provides and heals.

The lowest of the male energy predator-like, destroys and steals.”

Ayn Dillard



By understanding her ways, he comes to know the mystery of his heart. By sharing love with her, he discovers how to love the world. In the merging of the two, she awakens his masculinity to receive the beauty of the feminine. He becomes her strength. She becomes his weakness -- this is truest and most profound exchange of power.



About the Author



Ayn Dillard - has experienced much, prompting much self-reflection. She is a self-proclaimed know-it-all and is sharing some of what she knows with you. She acknowledges that just when you think you know it all , your inner or outer world shifts. For you to realize that you don't know much of anything, encouraging you to dig deeper to discover an even more profound awareness and wisdom. Understanding this, she shares what she has gleaned from her experiences and life to assist others to become more aware. She is a former ballet dancer, former interior designer, and a right/left integration specialist/kinesiologist. Self-awareness is our greatest journey on earth. "In order to write about life, you must first live it." Ernest Hemingway