Addicted to ... toxicity

Life is beautiful ... but all is so confusing ... because of the energetic influences ... which are around us.
You ... and i have to admit that i do the same mistake ...
believe that toxicity is part of life.
And ... we should accept it.
Many times in continuous form ... till we actually treat it
as ... normality.
I had ... i have and most certainly ... i'll still have this
addiction for ... toxicity.
I don't know why ... but it even looks like ... a hobby.
And sometimes ... my main occupation.
But ... this is what life taught me ... by years.
Of course ... it was silly of me to accept the idea ... but it's so damn late today ... being overwhelmed of the negativity.
Many times ... looking so, so ... sad.
Or even depressed.
But ... illusory pretending ... i have no idea ... why.
Even if ... all it's a lie.
So ... i do my best to redefine myself.
To heal ... my so called ... broken soul. And ... get rid of ... negative vibes.
Be courageous.
Or at least ... try it.
Because ... I've delayed it too much.
Much too much.
Wasting my time ... and my existence ... into the illusory