#1 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • The critically acclaimed singer-songwriter, producer, and six-time Grammy winner opens up about a life shaped by music in this candid, heartfelt, and intimate story.
“One of the great memoirs of our time . . . a gift from Brandi’s soul.”—Glennon Doyle • “Brandi’s story is about perseverance, humor, forgiveness, and manifestation. I absolutely loved it.”—Elton John • “Broken Horses led me right into Brandi’s heart, and my own.”—Brené Brown
Brandi Carlile was born into a musically gifted, impoverished family on the outskirts of Seattle and grew up in a constant state of change, moving from house to house, trailer to trailer, fourteen times in as many years. Though imperfect in every way, her dysfunctional childhood was as beautiful as it was strange, and as nurturing as it was difficult. At the age of five, Brandi contracted bacterial meningitis, which almost took her life, leaving an indelible mark on her formative years and altering her journey into young adulthood.
As an openly gay teenager, Brandi grappled with the tension between her sexuality and her faith when her pastor publicly refused to baptize her on the day of the ceremony. Shockingly, her small town rallied around Brandi in support and set her on a path to salvation where the rest of the misfits and rejects find it: through twisted, joyful, weird, and wonderful music.
In Broken Horses, Brandi Carlile takes readers through the events of her life that shaped her very raw art—from her start at a local singing competition where she performed Elton John’s “Honky Cat” in a bedazzled white polyester suit, to her first break opening for Dave Matthews Band, to many sleepless tours over fifteen years and six studio albums, all while raising two children with her wife, Catherine Shepherd. This hard-won success led her to collaborations with personal heroes like Elton John, Dolly Parton, Mavis Staples, Pearl Jam, Tanya Tucker, and Joni Mitchell, as well as her peers in the supergroup The Highwomen, and ultimately to the Grammy stage, where she converted millions of viewers into instant fans.
Evocative and piercingly honest, Broken Horses is at once an examination of faith through the eyes of a person rejected by the church’s basic tenets and a meditation on the moments and lyrics that have shaped the life of a creative mind, a brilliant artist, and a genuine empath on a mission to give back.
Carlile recorded new stripped-down, solo renditions of more than 30 of the songs featured in the book, including her own and songs from artists who’ve inspired her, from Dolly Parton to Elton John, Leonard Cohen and more, available exclusively on the audiobook:
“I Don’t Hurt Anymore” by Hank Snow
“Coat of Many Colors” by Dolly Parton
“Ride on Out” by Brandi Carlile
“Honky Cat” by Elton John and Bernie Taupin
“Philadelphia” by Neil Young
“Happy” by Brandi Carlile
“That Year” by Brandi Carlile
“Hallelujah” by Leonard Cohen
“Eye of the Needle” by Brandi Carlile
“Turpentine” by Brandi Carlile
“Wasted” by Brandi Carlile
“The Story” by Brandi Carlile
“Closer to You” by Brandi Carlile
“Caroline” by Brandi Carlile
“Josephine” by Brandi Carlile
“Sugartooth” by Brandi Carlile
“Looking Out” by Brandi Carlile
“Beginning to Feel the Years” by Brandi Carlile
“Love Songs” by Brandi Carlile
“I Will” by Brandi Carlile
“I Belong to You” by Brandi Carlile
APPLE BOOKS REVIEW
Singer-songwriter Brandi Carlile leads us through a hardscrabble childhood and down her path to finding success on her own terms. Broken Horses opens among the dirt roads and double-wide trailers of rural Washington state, where Carlile lived with her proud but impoverished family. Those years were full of challenges—like competing with her troubled younger brother for their parents’ attention, contending with her alcoholic father, and, of course, being a lesbian in a deeply religious conservative area. Country-music stardom wasn’t initially the balm she’d hoped for, as it came with crippling anxiety, drugs, and codependent relationships. Carlile draws us into her struggles with frankness, insight, humor, and not a drop of self-pity. Best of all, she ends each chapter with a song, including both originals and covers. Each is relevant to that part of her life—including the very first song she wrote as a child. We loved listening to this beautiful story of a woman coming to terms with her family, her faith, and herself.
This is amazing. What a treat to have Brandi do the reading and then add her music. I have listened to many audio books. Never anything like this. This truly is an incredible experience. Her talent is beyond measure. Love this!
This is my second book that I have had read to me. And by the author as well. I enjoyed every second of the rise of Brandis stardom coupled with her understanding and knowing of Gods existence. I am same as I know what I know. And to now have a new voice that I can play over and over again and never tire of is an extra cherry on top! Just perfect!
Best Audiobook so far this year!
I loved this book! I struggle sometimes with audio books, my mind drifts off, but not with this one. The story itself was a gem, but then at the end of each chapter you’d hit gold with her beautiful voice and music. She is so relatable and awesome I might even have to listen to it a second time.