Down the Rabbit Hole Down the Rabbit Hole

Down the Rabbit Hole

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Publisher Description

The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and the man who holds the key—from the woman who was Hef’s #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door. Read by Holly Madison herself!

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.

This unflinching Hollywood tell-all reveals:
Life Inside the Mansion: From A-list parties to the oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and backstabbing bunnies that pushed a young woman to her breaking point.The Girls Next Door: The real, unvarnished truth about her relationships with co-stars Bridget and Kendra, away from the reality TV cameras.Raw Honesty: A shockingly candid look at losing her identity and self-worth—and the moment in a bathtub that changed everything.Personal Empowerment: A powerful journey of healing, taking charge of her own narrative, and fighting for the life she deserved after walking away.

GENRE
Biographies & Memoirs
NARRATOR
HM
Holly Madison
LANGUAGE
EN
English
LENGTH
10:51
hr min
RELEASED
2015
June 23
PUBLISHER
Dey Street Books
SIZE
521.5
MB

Customer Reviews

cmorcarol ,

Pleasantly surprised

I found it fascinating that a woman with the stereotypical impression of a blond, gold digger, who lacks brain cells, is none of that. She’s an interesting woman, who is quite bright, and has a bright future. I wish her continued success.

GuidoRaphael ,

This woman is unbelievable!

Did she actually thought she was going to be respected and care for by the man who was PAYING her to be his girlfriend! I truly don’t think so. That’s what makes this entire memoir so unbelievable fake. All she does is complaint. And by the way, how many times a person can say “needless to say” for crying out loud!

BookreaderM ,

She screams when reading

She literally screams when reading the book. Does she not realize it’s horrible to hear someone squeal and scream in a very high pitched voice?? Ew. I had to stop listening. Also, this audiobook doesn’t have chapters. Instead, it’s segmented into “tracks”, which don’t correspond to any particular part of the book. So there’s no way to navigate the book or know what part you’re listening to. I wish Id skipped this one. 👎

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