The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door
A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.
APPLE BOOKS REVIEW
We figured Down the Rabbit Hole would be as fluffy and superficial as the reality series The Girls Next Door, in which Holly Madison appeared as one of Hugh Hefner's three young girlfriends. Instead, Madison steers us away from the cameras, shattering Hefner's carefully constructed image of his Playboy Mansion as a place of easygoing, uninhibited sensuality. Madison narrates tales of depression, infighting, and personal betrayals in a straightforward fashion that cuts through the fabricated glitz and glamour. Don't judge the book by its sex-kitten cover: Madison’s emotional story of determination is full of honest truths.
As most people playboy was a glamorous life most of us women dreamed we’d be pretty enough to be part of. I was born in “72” so these magazines were in my dads work shop and as a very young girl, 4 maybe younger, that became what is “beautiful “ to me. While I loved, the Girls Next Door, to me it was a chance to finally see inside this glamorous life as well as see how this man who was a pioneer and change the way sex is viewed and judged throughout decade over decades. I thought Holly was stuck up and spoiled as well as ungrateful BUT, after listening to the book and hearing her story in her words. My opinion of Holly and playboy has totally change. Holly is brave and strong to tell her side and I’m glad she did . Playboy isn’t glamorous in fact .. it’s kinda icky and twisted. Like most everything in Hollywood is. Hollys a survivor
A very good read( or, listen)
Not knowing much about playboy or the show, I remember coming across this years prior when a YouTuber I used to watch brought it up as her favorite book of that month. Come to recently, I passed by it again by chance and thought that I would give the sample a listen. Afterwards, I immediately bought the book and dived into it. And I have to say, I’ve listened to it maybe twice or even three times and have enjoyed every moment of it.