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Publisher Description


The former middle distance Olympic runner and high-end escort speaks out for the first time about her battle with mental illness, and how mania controlled and compelled her in competition, but also in life. This is a heartbreakingly honest yet hopeful memoir reminiscent of Manic, Electroboy, and An Unquiet Mind.

During the 1990s, three-time Olympian Suzy Favor Hamilton was the darling of American track and field. An outstanding runner, a major sports apparel spokesperson, and a happily married wife, she was the model for an active, healthy, and wholesome life. But her perfect facade masked a dark truth: manic depression and bipolar disorder that drove her obsession to perform and win. For years after leaving the track, Suzy wrestled with her condition, as well as the loss of a close friend, conflicted feelings about motherhood and her marriage, and lingering shame about her athletic career. After a misdiagnosis and a recommendation for medication that only exacerbated her mania and made her hypersexual, Suzy embarked on a new path, and assumed a new identity. Fueled by a newfound confidence, a feeling of strength and independence and a desire she couldn’t tamp down, she became a high-priced escort in Las Vegas, working as “Kelly.”

But Suzy could not keep her double life a secret forever. When it was eventually exposed, it sent her into a reckless suicidal period where the only option seemed out. Finally, with the help of her devoted husband, Suzy finally got the proper medical help she needed. In this startling frank memoir, she recounts the journey to outrun her demons, revealing how a woman used to physically controlling her body learned to come to terms with her unstable mind. It is the story of a how a supreme competitor scored her most important victory of all—reclaiming her life from the ravages of an untreated mental illness. Today, thanks to diagnosis, therapy, Kelly has stepped into the shadows, but Suzy is building a better life, one day at a time. Sharing her story, Suzy is determined to raise awareness, provide understanding, and offer inspiration to others coping with their own challenges.

Biographies & Memoirs
Suzy Favor Hamilton
hr min
September 14

Customer Reviews

BoboMojo ,

Excellent audiobook!

I’m old school so I’ve never purchased an audiobook until now. I was going on a long flight and I have difficulty reading on a moving airplane or vehicle so I decided to buy this one. I haven’t finished listening to the entire audiobook, but so far I’m very pleased with the voice of the reader (narration). The subject matter is controversial, but Suzy’s story interested me since I was curious at how she handled the notoriety. I thought she would have gone into hiding.

175680 ,

Poor writing, vague point.

Lacked substance or any type of thoughtful reflection on her experience. It was more a selective play by play than a memoir. The only thing I’m really clear on is how much the author admired her fit, toned legs.

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