Zane Jaffe has almost lost track of what conception cycle she's in. (That's a lie: this is cycle thirteen.) She's fake-dating her pal Mildred to get her best friend off her back, but judging by how hot it was when they accidentally kissed, her feelings might be somewhat less platonic than she'd thought.
And she's decided that healing the fractured local queer community can only be accomplished through a party. Or maybe it's actually a wake. Whatever it is, it'll take place at Club Fred's, and there will be alcohol.
Trying to conceive is an unholy rollercoaster of emotions, and Mildred won't let them kiss again until Zane figures out how she feels. Between the wake (exhausting as hell, and that's just the fun stuff), the constant up-down cycle of trying to get pregnant, and saving the world in the meantime, Zane has no idea. Falling in love with Mildred isn't on her list, but maybe it's time to let go of that rigid future she's been working toward, and try for something better.
In this touching contemporary romance, fifth in Ripper's Queers of La Vista series (after One Life to Lose), Zane Jaffe struggles to build the family she has envisioned, facing heartbreaking setbacks but also unexpected joys. Zane, a 30-something real estate agent in the fictional California town of La Vista, has been trying to conceive for the past year, using donor sperm. She doesn't really want a partner, but to satisfy her best friend Jaq's concerns, she and her friend Mildred are pretending to date. Zane's realization that she wants to be in a real relationship with Mildred puts all her careful plans into disarray. Meanwhile, after the arrest of the murderer who'd been targeting queer and trans people in La Vista, Zane decides to organize a wake in hopes of bringing closure to the community. The story showcases that carefully crafted community, deftly highlighting its diversity and interconnectedness. Loving guidance from her friends corrects Zane's frustrating tendency to get in her own way and leads up to a gratifying conclusion.