In this memoir, Maya Hope Kitwana exposes her truth; showing from the inside out what was required for her to survive her childhood nightmares. These nightmares no longer torment Maya Hope Kitwana. Her story provides a lighthouse for others who have suffered abuse. A way out to discover love. A strong word of caution—the material shared isn't for everyone. Maya's story is not just a recap of unflinching secrets. This is a graphic, yet fearless look at a woman’s journey through rape, incest, and abandonment—and her movement toward hope, healing, intimacy, and love. Maya charts a course that is painful and powerful. This work is about secrets and rage. It is about honesty and revenge. Despair. Faith. Kindness. Over thirty years of silence is too long.