Julian loves living behind his 'out there' personality...then he meets Mattie, the only one who sees him as his true self. Yet Mattie has his own issues to deal with. Do they have the courage to deal with it together?
Living a lie, Matthew ‘Mattie’ Alexander is exhausted. It’s not easy to keep up the pretence, the deceit, but it’s safer. Coming out to a world that so easily hates takes a courage he’s yet to find, so he pretends – pretends to be into women – pretends to love being a part of the university’s football team. It keeps him safe, hidden.
Until he meets Julian.
From the moment they first meet, Mattie knows life is about to change. He’s yet to determine if it is for the better or worse. Living life through laughter, Julian is lonely. Without the jokes, the humour, he would be living on the edge of depression. Succumbing to his controlling father’s demands, Julian finds no joy in the path laid out before him.
Until he meets Mattie.
As soon as they cross paths, Mattie has the power to drive Julian’s man parts crazy with lust. But can lust be enough to help Mattie out of the closet, and guide Julian into a happier place?
Limits will be pushed. Rules will be broken. But it’s only together, that they will have the strength to overpower fear, fear of themselves and fear of others. Just how far are they willing to go in the aim of coming out?
Other titles available in the series:
Holding Out: book 1
Climbing Out: book 2
Finding Out: book 2.5
Black Out: book 3
No Way Out: book 4
This book is awesome when I feel down and out I read this again can’t get enough 😊
Honestly, I couldn’t finish this book, it was horrifying. The extreme lack of consent was actually deeply upsetting, and not sexy. The young 19 year old character says no multiple times only to be ignored by the 36 year old and it’s supposed to be sexy because he really wants it. This is the worst trope in romance, and one I see thought was on its way out. Not only is there explicit lack of consent on MULTIPLE occasions, the older character’s behavior is stalker-y dressed up as romantic. And his relationship with his parents is not only unbelievable in its degree of horror (they are physically and psychologically abusive), but also downright disturbing that the author felt the need to write in a childhood molestation storyline without then thinking about the fact that she makes this character ignore refusals of his advances for the rest of the book. None of the emotion felt real, and while sometimes poorly written books can be skimmed if the story is good, this one was truly horrendous.
Though Matt and Julian's story is a backtrack or flashback story. It is more than a required part of this series.