The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and the man who holds the key—from the woman who was Hef’s #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.
A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.
APPLE BOOKS REVIEW
Far darker than its candy-pink cover suggests, Down the Rabbit Hole chronicles Holly Madison's time as Hugh Hefner's "number one girlfriend." Madison portrays Hefner as controlling and manipulative, and life at the Playboy Mansion as stiflingly scheduled—curfew at 9 p.m., sex on Wednesdays and Fridays. The experience stripped Madison of her self-worth and left her clinically depressed. More reflective than the typical celebrity memoir, the reality star’s account provides a fascinating, troubling look into the Playboy mythology and our cultural obsession with the female body.
Couldn't put it down
I've watched every episode of GND, Hollys World&& Kendra's show. I loved getting the behind the scenes look. Now I want to watch the shows from beginning to end ... Again :)
Heartbreaking but also uplifting.
Holly was always my favorite of the GND and reading this only made me love her more. Bravo Holly on staying true to yourself with this book and on becoming the success we all knew you could be.
Gossip lines not story lines
I did enjoy the read but I wish it was more like a story and not her rambling on from one thing to another so quickly.