Lexi's angry. And it's getting worse.
If only she could stop losing her temper and behave herself, her stepfather would accept her, her mom would love her like she used to, and her stepbrother would declare his crushing desire to spend the rest of his life with her. She wants these things so badly, she's determined to swallow her anger and make her family proud.But pushing fury down doesn't make it disappear. Instead, it simmers below the surface waiting to erupt . . . And there'll be fireworks when it does.
From the bestselling and award-winning author of Before I Die, You Against Me, and Unbecoming comes a remarkably affecting story that explores the myriad of ways a girl's sense of self can be whittled away, and what might happen when she fights back.
In this thought-provoking novel, British YA author Downham (Before I Die) frankly conveys the effects of emotional abuse through her intimate portrait of a furious teen. Fifteen-year-old Lexi's hot temper and volatile outbursts are ruining her mother's idealized "proper family." Lexis is convinced that her soon-to-be-stepfather, John, doesn't care as much for her as he does for his six-year-old daughter, Iris, or his older son, Kass, Lexi's childhood friend with whom she's has fallen in love. With the wedding approaching, Lexi vows to calm down and be nicer to John, but when her efforts backfire, her fury grows, especially when John's cruelty extends to her mother and Iris. Despite her wild behavior, Lexi emerges as an empathic heroine whose evolution from self-deprecating teen to a self-confident young woman is adroitly crafted alongside the fine line between strict parenting and abuse. Many teens, particularly those who recognize Lexi's circumstances, will draw strength and courage from her arduous emotional journey. Ages 12 up.