I Did it in the Dark: My Uncensored Journey Through Weight Loss, Ozempic, Surgery and the Self-Love I Found on the Other Side

I was tired of being the fat friend.

Tired of hiding in pictures.
Tired of pretending I was "confident enough."
Tired of being the funny one, the supportive one, the accomplished one—while secretly hating what I saw in the mirror.

People saw the degrees.
The leadership title.
The polished clothes.
The school principal.

What they didn't see was the binge eating.
The bulimia.
The food obsession.
The shame.
The exhaustion of fighting a body that never seemed to work the way everyone else's did.

So I did what many women do.

I hid it.

I lost 145 pounds in private.

From 315 pounds to 170, I went through two bariatric surgeries, appetite suppressants, Ozempic, therapy, insulin resistance, depression, and a mental health battle that nearly destroyed me—all while showing up to work smiling like everything was fine.

Nobody knew.

I Did It in the Dark is the uncensored truth about weight loss when the issue isn't laziness or willpower. It's biology. Trauma. Hormones. Shame. Survival.

No filter.
No fake inspiration.
No "just love yourself" speeches.

Inside this memoir, I tell the parts people usually hide:

•The bulimia I never admitted out loud
•The appetite suppressants I kept secret
•The insulin resistance no one diagnosed for years
•The moment Ozempic finally silenced the food noise in my brain
•The reality of bariatric surgery, revision surgery, and recovery
•The emotional cost of becoming "smaller" while still feeling broken inside
•What it feels like when people finally treat you better after weight loss
•The loneliness of transforming in silence

This is not a diet book.

This is what happens behind the glow-up.

It's about faith, shame, womanhood, mental health, relationships, and the brutal truth about what many overweight women carry privately for years.

If you've ever:

•Felt humiliated by your weight
•Been ashamed of needing medical help to lose it
•Hidden your eating habits from people you love
•Wondered why your body fights you so hard
•Taken Ozempic, Wegovy, Mounjaro, or considered surgery in secret
•Smiled in public while suffering in private

This book is for you.

The weight loss changed my body.

The truth changed my life.

And I'm finally done hiding how it happened.