A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days
“A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church
What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you.
You just want a way out.
But there’s hope.
In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better.
Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.
This insightful debut from lifestyle coach Robinson compassionately explores how Christians "can learn to live well" and "cultivate hope... despite living with severe depression." Robinson is emphatic that "mental illness is not a failure of faith or evidence of a flimsy prayer life." On the contrary, she writes, depression, self-harm, and suicide can be caused by "a complicated mix of factors" including traumatic experiences, insufficient nutrition or exercise, and genetics. Urging readers to be "ruthless" with self-care ("We must be just as merciless against depression and thoughts of suicide as they are against us"), Robinson shares practical advice for how to deal with one's "darkest moments," including Christian meditative techniques and guidance for finding a therapist. She also recommends talking to oneself as one would "talk to those you care about" and making a list of why "you are beloved." Two robust appendices provide further resources and additional reading. Robinson's soothing tips and sage advice should go a long way toward helping those in need of assistance "ride the waves of depression without drowning under them." Christians struggling with mental health will find this to be a welcome guide.