CINDERELLA ... a princess showing to the world that she already lost her minds ... waiting and waiting

I've met her ... again.
She was disguised so, so well that I really thought she's a princess from fairy tales ... so i've did all my best to connect with her.
Karmically speaking continuing the last love story ... but replacing the so called "love of my life" ... with the blonde even if i really thought i'll never forget the brunette.
At least not into this life.
But ... it happened.
So ... another beautiful woman ... another love story ... another illusory impression that all will be a hollywoodian scenario ... but all ended ... as always ... as a nightmare.
Well ... the funny thing is ... and that is why i use the word "karma" to justify the need of writing this book ... over explaining everything, but still being confused and confusing the others too ... and i really have to mention that again and again ... that i took the brunette from the mental health hospital but then took the blonde back into that place. Illusory believing i'll close the vicious circle.
The spell.
Or better said ... the curse. All being so weird.
Wasting my existence.
Destroying myself ... again and again and again ... for the
sake of the worst addiction from this world ... the need of being loved.