LOVING ... a way of being fooled to learn easier ... how to connect to the Infinite

Of course ... the question is ... "Am i an ordinary stone ... or a diamond?!" ... and if you would really have this ability to read the mind of your partner ... you'd see the same question repeated again and again.
And ... it's not a nonsense.
We all need the confirmations ... that we are specials. That we are part of the infinite.
That ... all happened bad from the early childhood till today ... it's a crap ... which we should totally dis consider ... cause ...
Unfortunately ... many, many times ... the dynamic is weird.
And stupid.
All becoming ... a nonsense.
A non ending nonsense.
That is probably why so, so many people invest today so
much time and energy ... in personal marketing.
Trying to look ... like "diamonds" ... repeatedly asking ... or even begging for confirmations. On and on and on.
Like ... a karmic act.
So ... what the hell is this about?!
Why such a fight for being treated as "diamonds"?! Honestly ... i believe ... at least into my case ... that i know my value ... i feel it ... but i am not confident enough to understand ... the infinite and the fact that i am connected to it.
Needing confirmations.
Again and again.
That is actually why i am addicted of experiencing duality in love stories.
Always ... in need of a woman.
One that knows to act like a great actress ... and whisper those daily affirmations ... which are certainly food for my ego... but also my soul.
Unfortunately ... reality is different ... experiencing life near stupid women ... which don't really know ... about the fundamental needs of a man.
Or maybe all is happening to me ... is karmic. Maybe ... i deserve such a pathetic treatment.
Truth being that i am chasing for poetic experiences ... but always end up into pathetic scenarios.
Because ... i never treated a woman as a diamond either. In fact ... i've offered them just ... normality.
... making them feel ordinary.
So ... i guess ... it's time for a change.
Redefine my thoughts. My expectations.
The way i act.
The way i reply. Redefine ... just all ...
And ... it's really a must ...