Illusory thoughts

Today i think and i feel into a certain way.
I write everything down on paper ... and ...
Few days later, i read and i laugh of all my thoughts and
feelings.
And ... i write something different.
Is like everything had changed.
Totally.
Most probably ... that is happening again and again.
Yeah ... now ... i say something.
Tomorrow ... something different.
Then ... the day after tomorrow something totally different.
Looking and actually acting like a person with serious
problems of personality or even with ... mental problems.
All being so damn illusory.
And ...
The show goes on.
I keep writing.
Mainly about duality.
Trying to understand ... and fix it ... so that i can have an
amazing experience ... in continuous form.
Chasing for something which is certainly ... an illusion.
But ... still doing it.
So ... i write about all the nonsenses from my heart and
my mind ... defining all in micro details ... but ...
Somehow ... it's all a pathetic show, but i continue writing.
A poetry about the nonsense from my soul, but knowing that this is actually ... the truth about many, many others.
A dance of illusory thoughts.
Contradictory thoughts.
So dominant ... that overwhelms me ... believing all is
actually real.
When in fact ..