My Untrue Past: The Coming of Age of a Trans Man

"This cannot be right. I am a historian by profession and I misrepresent my own history. A man without a past, do I really want to be that?"

Born the youngest daughter in a small town family in the Netherlands, Alex Bakker underwent gender reaffirming transition when he was twenty-eight years old. A new beginning, in the right body, he literally put everything that reminded him of his old life into boxes, never to be opened again. More than fifteen years later, he has finally gathered the courage to face his past. In My Untrue Past, Alex goes in search of the painful truth. What does it mean to be betrayed by your body, to be immensely jealous of boys, and to decide that everything needs to be different?

“A beautifully written book about a universal theme: the search for yourself. I was very moved.”
Michiel van Erp [Producer and Director of the documentary film I Am a Woman Now 2012]