In this “raw and well-crafted (Kirkus Reviews)” romance, Bea learns that some things just can’t be controlled.
When Bea meets Beck, she knows instantly that he’s her kind of crazy. Sweet, strong, kinda-messed-up Beck understands her like no one else can. He makes her feel almost normal. He makes her feel like she could fall in love again.
But despite her feelings for Beck, Bea can’t stop thinking about someone else: a guy who is gorgeous and magnetic…and has no idea Bea even exists. But Bea spends a lot of time watching him. She has a journal full of notes. Some might even say she’s obsessed.
Bea tells herself she’s got it all under control. But this isn’t a choice, it’s a compulsion. The truth is, she’s breaking down…and she might end up breaking her own heart.
When Bea's therapist decides she would benefit from group therapy, Bea is sure that if she starts talking about her "little anxieties about driving and missing my ex-boyfriend, these people will feel approximately a thousand times worse about themselves." But Bea isn't just an over-cautious driver and a blurter; she's afraid to be around sharp objects in case she suddenly harms someone and is basically stalking the couple that has therapy before her. And then there's the fact exciting and mortifying in equal parts that the group includes Beck, an adorable compulsive hand-washer Bea met while he was having a panic attack. Debut novelist Haydu doesn't sugarcoat the difficulties of OCD or reduce her characters to a symptom list. Bea and Beck, who readers see through Bea's sympathetic and knowing eyes, get worse and better not according to a predetermined outline but according to their individual trajectories. That they do so while trying to build a relationship with someone who's seen them as they really are, to move past shame into intimacy, makes the story that much more touching. Ages 14 up.
this book gets better as you read it! totally unpredictable! this book made me super emotional and i would have loved to see a movie about this book bc its funny as well.
OCD love story <3
I love this book usually I have to keep reading on to get to a point were I start to like it but this book got me addicted from the start. You should definitely get this book it's to die for<3